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You texted me that out of suddenly and leaving me all in questioning. You did not even gave us a chance to sit down and talk things out. I felt unfair. Are you doing the right thing? I don't know. Though I have to let it go but I really don't understand it. We were okay on that day but now is so different. Its been 1 year. Though is not so long but 1 year feeling that I had for you isn't fake. But just a few days days less than a week, you said you've no longer feelings there. Are you faking me?

Now what I know about you is that you're not facing it. I felt kind of disappointed on you. I'm trying my very best to change it and you never give a chance. I knew you had given me many chances. But this time round that I had, I'm cherishing it. You never gave me the proper chance when you say you gave me.

You're avoiding by not replying my text. I ringed you up on the friday night. I was at Takashimaya. I wanted to tell you that I wanted to bring you there to have meals with the voucher that I currently had as there's many good meals. But I've got no response from you. I thought for a moment why aren't you replying. You may be tired and sleeping currently so I stopped all the callings and texting. But just the next day, I knew you got work in the morning as you told me before. But I did not receive anything from you too. I had a terrible sleep that night. I kept waking up in the middle of the night and looking at my phone, but saw nothing. This kept repeated the whole night till the next morning. I still got nothing from you. I told myself maybe you need times and ask myself not to think negatives things. But still, nothing.

Since yesterday I felt something is wrong. But I can't text you much because I told myself you might need time. But while time passes minutes by minutes, hours by hours. I got afraid. Because feelings telling me that you may lost the feeling. & now should I say I'm bingo? I didn't expect so much. I know you can't feel and see I'm changing.

But I'll prove you.

I want to let you know, I had never felt regret being with you. If time would turn back to the beginning. I'll still choose you instead of letting you go. Because I know myself I don't think I'm wrong to choose you right from the beginning.

I know no point getting the reason nor answer from you because even if I got an answer I'll still have to let it go and move on with my days. The things I got for you, you can keep it as a memory that we once had together. Things that you have with me, I will return it to you. But please leave it with me for a few days alright? I just want to hug your bear just a few days will do. You can get it back when you're free. I know you wouldn't want to see me. just leave me a text telling me you're free and want to get your things. I'll leave my keys at the same place for you to get back. Don't worry you won't get to see me.

You were the best I have seen. Must take care okay. Best wishes.